some random sad feelings…

It is said that what we see from our eyes are always true and right.I do not think so. A situation which is seen by four different people can be interpreted in four different ways as per they empathise the situation.

They tell me that I have better situation than they have.I do not know if I can say I have one.Honestly,I do not think so.

I realize many times while comparing the problems or situation we are in, we tend to forget that everyone of us have our own journey with ups and downs.How easily they say“  you have not faced any hardships that we have“. People hardly show the pain and agony they are going through. It is not only me but almost everyone I know hardly share their sadness. We like to share happiness but sadness is something which you cannot just share with anyone.So many things might be going on in someone’s world. We cannot even imagine how many deaths people are dying everyday behind the smile that are put on those faces.

I was so shocked when they said to me Arpana you are on a safe side. You have less problems.

They will never understand the pain of being alien and alone.They will never understand about being alone in a crowd.They will never understand the agony of having  everything but nothing.

feeling sad-Arpana



Some one told me no matter what I should not expect from anyone. Be it love ,friendship or just a genuine help to a stranger….that person told me we should not expect anything from the other side.

In my view this world revolves on expectation.No one does anything for free. You treat a person with love and care because you want to be treated in same way by that person. You love your spouse, partner with all our heart because you want to get same or more love and warmth in return.

Expectation hurts, this is the bitter truth. You have given all you can and in return when your friend does not seem to put as much as effort as you do…it hurts!

I think I am hurt. Expectation means you are giving an important key to your happiness to some one else. I did the same and I still do. Giving away that key to my friends and people around me is making me quite weak. In return most of the times, I am just left alone( at least I feel it). This does not mean I have started being mean to any of them. Instead I try my level best not to show how disappointed I am.

I try to believe Life is beautiful and things will go on right track again.I still keep my expectations high…and I fly..